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12 weeks…
Well, today marks the 12 week mark. Or thereabout. I am officially out of the 1st trimester and have entered less scary waters. The first trimester and part of the 2nd are so full of sickness for me. It is just not fun for me. It does help me know that I am, for sure, pregnant, but it is not fun. I don’t like it, not one little bit. Anyways, the 2nd trimester helps me rest a little easier in regards to miscarriage. I know there are no guarantees that there will be no problems with this pregnancy. God knows how long this child’s life will be.
After the trials I have been through over the past few years, being pregnant at all is amazing to me. I felt like Hannah. It may seem a bit dramatic to say that. I had two healthy, happy children. They really are the best kids ever! However, I couldn’t shake wanting more babies. I wanted to do it again (and maybe 1 more time after this). I just didn’t see how it would be possible, though, with the illness I was suffering through. He has blessed me. Not for any other reason than because He is good. I didn’t do ANYTHING to deserve anything good in this life. Not a thing.
I surely do not understand the depths of God’s ways. I am sure I never will. There are just some mysteries we are not meant to know. I do have faith, though. I do believe in what the bible says in Matthew 7:11. Not in a name it and claim it kind of way. That stuff is just weird. However, in a God is good and loves us kind of way. He just is good. For me, right now, that means another child. For that, I am ever so grateful.
Now here is your theology lesson of the day on God’s goodness:
From Calvin’s Institues (3.3.15), a quote from Bernard of Clairvaux:
Sorrow for sins is necessary if it be not unremitting. I beg you to turn your steps back sometimes from troubled and anxious remembering of your ways, and to go forth to the tableland of serene remembrance of God’s benefits. Let us mingle honey with wormwood that its wholesome bitterness may bring health when it is drunk tempered with sweetness. If you take though upon yourselves in your humility, take thought likewise upon the Lord in his goodness.
And an excerpt from Psalm 25:
Good and upright is the LORD;
therefore he instructs sinners in the way.
He leads the humble in what is right,
and teaches the humble his way.
All the paths of the LORD are steadfast love and faithfulness,
for those who keep his covenant and his testimonies.For your name’s sake, O LORD,
pardon my guilt, for it is great.
Who is the man who fears the LORD?
Him will he instruct in the way that he should choose.
His soul shall abide in well-being,
and his offspring shall inherit the land.
The friendship of the LORD is for those who fear him,
and he makes known to them his covenant.
My eyes are ever toward the LORD,
for he will pluck my feet out of the net.
Oh yuck!
This is just yuck, yuck, yuck!! What has the church become when we resort to things such as that to try and “lure” people into the fold. Seriously, this is NOT what we are called to be. I have no problem being relevant. Jesus was the epitome of relevance. Really, though…is this necessary?
Kids say the darndest things…
When we were getting my 3 year old daughter ready this morning, she was chattering on about her {naked} doll she had just found. She wanted her doll’s hair to be styled just like hers and to have lipstick on – lip gloss – just like her. Fast forward a few minutes. We are done with my daughters beautiful (ponytail) hairdo, and we were ready to style the doll’s hair. I finish the doll’s ponytail…which is no small feat. Do you realize how matted plastic hair can get?! Then we set off to find the doll’s dress in my daughter’s tornado toybox. I find it and present it to my little one. She immediately exclaims, “Oh! Her is gonna be so pretty! Her is gonna be a pwincess, just like me!”
I love this age. She has gotten more agreeable over the past few months. Much better than the 2’s and early 3’s were. Of course, just as I am typing that, she comes over screaming at me to find some mints. I have no idea what mints she is talking about. Apparently, we had them before we went to “Gwamma’s house”…sheesh! It is good to know my kids have high self esteem and feel comfortable expressing their opinions around me.
ummmm…..
so, i am pregnant. baby number 3 is on the way!!!
I am gonna do this today…
Today…
Outside my window… a perfect Spring day.
From the Learning Room… tying up loose ends, finishing up the school year.
I am thankful for… a whole lot of things, actually
From the kitchen…I smell cilantro. I just made red beans and rice and had some fresh cilantro, so I added it along with the salsa I made the other day. Delish!
I am wearing… jeans shorts, grey Crossfit tee.
I am hoping… to finally get the garden done this weekend. I am WAY overdue.
I am creating… some blankets for family.
I am praying… for some answers to prayers in the next day or so.
Around the house… happy to have a new, bigger house.
One of my favorite things… the early morning hours
A few plans for the rest of the week… school work every day, Classical Conversations closing ceremony on Tuesday evening, finish up laundry, time with friends on Wednesday, Renaissance Festival on Saturday, the rest will be seen…
Updating
So, it has been awhile since I have been on here. I have been so busy with homeschooling, (still) moving into our house, and just generally getting well. I have changed up my meds for the lyme disease. I am more closely following Stephen H. Buhner’s protocol and all I can say is WOW!! I feel tons better. I think I want to be an herbalist when I grow up now 
I am actually too distractible to do that, but I will be using more and more herbs for our illnesses. We already do to an extent, but I will just increase that.
I am working on the direction I want this blog to go. I want it to be “me” talking, but I also want to remain somewhat anonymous. If that is possible. So, we will see.
Until next time…
Do you ever…
wish you could go back and undo something? I do, I really do.
Happy Birthday!!!
Happy Birthday to my beautiful sister, Kourtney! Also Happy Birthday to my “twin” cousin, Misti! Kourtney is 21 (!) and Misti, who is only a couple months older than me is 30 (!!) Yes, that means I will be 30 very soon…………….
Happy Birthday to some amazing people who have made my life unbelievably richer. I love you both so much!
Sweetness
As a part of YouCapture, I have included this pic of my littlest one…
